I find my life rather boring so to document it seems boring beyond believe sometimes.
Leg check:
Today they feel bizarre. My knee is not happy with me and I'm not sure if it's from the fucking 18 degree weather or the walker squats I did earlier. Been trying to push my legs to the limit but they are not quite ready to push back I don't think. Possibly still angry with me from when I almost fell and pushed myself back up. FEEL THE BURN! Although part of me still wishes it would have just fallen that way something else besides my main focus could be angry.
Never in my life did I think I would be trying to retrain my legs to walk again.
I tell my PT all the time that as much as I love Frankenstein I'm pretty tired of walking like him!
Also my left ankle keeps doing this weird thing where it likes to roll while I am walking. It really makes for an exciting trip. Haha pun intended! I keep waiting for my Popeye arms to sprout out since I have been so heavily relying in them with my walker, the stairs, butt scooting and my wheel chair etc. but still hasn't happened. Not that it's a bad thing that I'm not buff like a sailor, but it would be nice to have something to show for all this misery!
Brain check:
Been in a pretty positive state of mind.
Feeling a big home sick but I think that is normal considering it's been almost a month since I left my home and bf in Cali to come stay with my parents and work on some rehabilitation. While it has been incredible spending time with family and friends I'm missing my love terribly and my cute little fur baby snugglers and my bed!
I've really tried to stay away from feeling sorry for myself and so far it's been working. Don't get me wrong I still have my days when I would like to wallow in my woe is me bullshit but I still get dressed (ok most days this is true but some days I love to stay in pjs) and go about my day like normal.
I do find myself getting more and more frustrated with people on Facebook whining about petty bullshit though when people of the world are dealing with real shit! Stop feeling sorry for yourself people and do something to fix it!
Sanity - check?
Well let's be honest I never really knew If I would qualify for sane.
But let me tell you what's been driving me insane!
People who keep getting terrible tattoos because they are offered a deal! That shit is on there for life! Don't settle on mediocre work people!
People who get an idea in their head that no matter how much evidence you provide otherwise they still think they are right.
People who park in handicap spots who aren't handicap! Yes shout out to you guy at BWW waiting on your carry out when there was at least 3 to go parking spots available in the same row!
Places that consider themselves handicap friendly yet cannot get a wheelchair into the bathroom or better yet the handicap stahl doesn't have the rails
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Honestly I never even checked half this stuff until I was in need of the handicap stahl! Now I feel like any new place I want to go I need to send in a spy to survey the area and let me know if the tables are friendly, the size of the bathroom and if they think I can get around in there. None of which ever mattered before.
For instance I wanted to check out this brewery in town which I was told was handicap friendly by one person.
Come to find out there's stairs to get into the bathroom. How is that even possible? What do people in wheelchairs do in this case? My dad always jokes that they have 3 strong men come and lift me down the stairs. Which let's face it could happen but not the most ideal.
I do have to say that my mom, dad and my brother have been absolute saints with lifting me and my chair in and out of people's houses! Also shout out to aunt Cathy, aunt Carol, uncle Terry and Uncle Jeff for helping as well!
My mom has also been helping along with my dad once I slide up the stairs.
And even my brothers friend bird has provided a helping hand!
Over all everyone has been so supportive and I'm so grateful but at the same time I just want to yell "BUCK THE FUCK UP LEGS ITS BEEN MONTHS YOUR VACATION IS OVER!"
I wish that pep talk would work and they would just snap into overdrive but sadly still clapping along like Frankenstein's monster over here! And no matter what I can't seem to get any other shoes/boots that I like as much as these ugly ass crocs! Ive worn my boots but they suck if there is any butt sliding involved or attempting stairs!
Anyhow I will end this post with some pictures from my weekend
And my fur babies that I miss like crazy
Good night all
Xo
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