Life is a frustrating highway

Today was a frustrating day!  

I woke up itchy and convinced myself that the low fat French silk ice cream I ate last night had caffeine in it. Although I searched online and it assured me it did not so I'm not sure why my right arm was itchy but it was and I found it annoying.

Although until recently I couldn't feel an itch so maybe that's a good sign? I don't really know. 

It's annoying to me sometimes the simple things I cannot do! 

1. Pick up a package from the office 

2. Check the mailbox 

3. Open the front door 

I'm sure the list could go on but those were the most frustrating things to me today.

I know my new walker is at the office and I want it! But even if I could get out of the house myself without a cat escaping, I then would have to wheel myself down to the office which is fine but then have to carry back an oddly shaped box while wheeling back into the garage. Yeah that's not happening!

I'm still waiting on a form for my taxes from the EDD office and wish I could stroll on over to the mailbox but same issues as above and not sure I could even get up the ramp myself to get to the mailbox and honestly I don't even know where my mailbox key is. It's just frustrating because I want the form so I can finish my taxes and I can't get to the damn box to check.

 

And don't even get me started about the front door and the stupid top lock! 

Nance came by earlier to drop off Girl Scout cookies and Andrew wasn't home yet so I couldn't open the door for her. That made me most frustrated. I felt bad because she went out of her way to come by an Andrew got stuck late at work and I can't even open the damn door! Not that I had the cash on me for the cookies anyway, but it's still frustrating. 

Not to mention I was already ready to lose my mind as it was because toast was being super bratty. She wanted food so I gave her food, then she acted like she never ate 10 minutes later and was biting my legs and climbing on top of my microwave to knock everything over.

And all I wanted to do was relax until it was time to come downstairs and cook dinner. But she wouldn't let up. I tried putting her into baby mode but that just made her claw my arm. I was ready to scream so I decided to come downstairs. 

I had found a recipe for White Castle burgers that I wanted to try and I had started prepare that while waiting for Andrew to get home. 

Was weird rolling out ground beef with a rolling pin but I followed the recipe.

While the burgers were good they weren't quite White Castle quality. I did enjoy them though and would probably make them again. Although it would be a lot easier if I could have made them myself and not have to ask for oven help but I'm working on it! 

And now she is finally being good:

Next up on our agenda this week is:

Turkey breast

Sausage stuffing 

Mashed potatoes & gravy  

Stovetop (that's for Andrew) 

Maybe on Friday or Saturday since I think I need a break from cooking. 

I feel like even the smallest thing takes so much energy and I really don't have all that much to begin with. 

Today especially! I finally fell asleep at 4 this morning and woke up quite a few times and finally at noon decided to make lunch. I didn't want to get out of bed. My quads hurt so bad I just wanted to stay snuggled up but crazy kitty antics did not want to let me be asleep. 

My hands are also extremely numb and tingly today and I have no real reason why they should be. I mean I worked on hand writing and some basic hand exercises but they just seem very hot and  annoyed with me. 

I can't tell you how happy I would be to have just one limb that wasn't numb and tingly on a daily basis! 

And it would be nice to not be constantly sweating! I am hoping once I finally get off steroids this will stop, but I'm also told by people that this is also from the gabapentin. I don't take a crazy dose of that though so I'm not sure. 

My friend Elizabeth and I were talking earlier about how we should make lists of things we ALMOST did today, but didn't.

Ha my main thing on today's list was blow drying my hair. 

The blow dryer was in the other room and my current walker doesn't fit through the doorways very easily. Hence why it's so frustrating that the new one is at the office and I cannot get it! 

So while I thing about blow drying my hair it just wasn't happening. 

Hell this day was so meh I'm lucky I even made it into the shower. 

But for real I smelled homeless so I had to shower and even brushed my teeth while I was in there.

I got dressed in my sweats and this new Men's V neck I bought. Now I know Kattee and Michea are wondering if it's a DEEP V and the answer is it could be deeper. I tried to hulk smash (rip it) because I couldn't find any scissors but no luck. I feel too hot and stuffy if a collar is too high. I need to just cut a nice chunk of this collar off. The rip is pretty nice I guess I had more brute strength then I thought! 

 

I just realized how all over the place this blog entry is and you know I'm really ok with it! Mostly because that's just how my mind works, it's really all over the place all the time. 

Anyhow I think that's it for today folks. 

Now that I have the worst onion breath ever I'm thinking I should retire back up to my bedroom and under my blankets! 

Maybe even sleep before 4am tomorrow morning? Let's hope. 

Xoxo